I haven't posted in such a long while. I haven't written in my journal, written poetry, written anything.
So let us catch up. I have new friends. Kelly, Marissa, Fran, Braden, Jay, and Dan sort of comes
and goes. Thus far i have spent pretty much everyday since may 8 with kelly, and since may 26-ish marissa has been involved too. I love them both. Fran and Braden are a couple, lovely people. Jay is fabulous, and Dan enjoys being passive agressive with me. Oh Well.
Kelly and I actually went out. It was nice. We had a nice relationship and we [she] didn't end it on bad terms at all. Actually the day after we hung out...I know thats not normal. It's like, we were best friends that made the mistake of going out. Not that it was a mistake-if I could go back in time, I wouldn't change anything. I'm pretty happy with the way things have turned out. We've never fought. Like, full on "don't call me" fought. Which is good, it's important to have that in a friendship i think. This is how I feel about Kelly- When I'm not around her, yeah, I miss her but, it's almost like when we aren't around eachother, we don't really consider the other one our friend. When we are hanging out we are having fun and we are friends and then when it's 1 am, sitting in our back yards smoking a cigarette having heavy conversations- it's not even like we are people, it's more like we just are and once it gets to that point- it's not that it doesn't matter what the other one is saying but, we don't take anything to heart even though we are completely
vunerable. We have an understanding of one another. A cycle. So yeah, once we get to that point we are best friends. She is actually moving to South Carolina in August, it will be sad because my life really has become marissa and kelly. And once kelly leaves it'll just
be marissa, which is fine, but, not the same. She's had a huge impact on my life, I have
personally changed so much and in so many ways. I've opened up to people- thats important.
I'm glad that she's in my life and I got to spend my summer with her. It's going to change soon though. I'm not looking foward to it. Marissa and I both know it will not be good.
Marissa is freaking fabulous and is always over my house seeing as how she lives around the corner. She's a good friend. I enjoy her company. We've helped eachother out alot lately, it was important. She is important.
So yeah- thats been my summer. But So far- i've totally changed as a person- we all knew it was going to happen. But i've changed for the better.
