good day...ish

okay so today went fairly amazing. I had a really fun day and then, i get home. My mom went out for a walk, i was in her room looking for my phone charger and since my dad moved out therewere a whole bunch of boxes in her room. Sticking out of one of the boxes was a piece of paper... the "edgy" side was up and it looked like paper from a note book that i had...i do alot of writing and i don't want my mother to see a mojority of it so i took the peice of paper out to look at it... to see if it was mine and on the piece of paper was basically a love letter from Jackie. She is a HUGE dyke that i have suspected for the past two years was my mothers girlfriend. The letter was all about how they are going to spend the rest of their life together... it made me sick to my stomach! So now I am having a break down and a half... but trying to remain calm and cool because I'm going to see Bare tonight and I can't look flustered in front of my company. I'm really just like... so upset. I think i want to confront my mother about this... but I don't know where to start! This is really difficult, but i know keeping this inside is going to kill me more. I don't know who to talk to so I'll just blog I guess. Ugh I'm so tired of not knowing... but I'm so afraid to find out the truth. I am flipping. Okay... If I do talk to her, which I doubt I will, but if i do... I'll report back with details.